Welcome to My Heart~

Furu is sorry to say that you have stumbled upon a trap. This is a one-way ticket to my heart, and there is no escape route. The moment you have stumbled upon this page- whatever the reason why you have arrived here, whether I’ve ever talked to you or not, whatever you have said or will say to me…

You are now inside my heart, and you have no choice but to be loved by me. While in here, you have a great variety of choice in arteries, veins, valves, etc. (>: please note that the atrias are booked only for special occasions, and the left ventricle has already been taken, and is now occupied. Ehhh! But the right ventricle is free, though).

While you are at it, feel free to call yourself one of my friends. Permanently. Though whether or not you consider me a friend…the choice is yours.

However, there is a bad side to being in Furu’s heart that I should warn you about. Furu here…is a very spoiled brat.

Yupyup, Furu is nineteen, but Furu has chosen to be a child because the world of adults had become too confusing for her to bear…

As an unfortunate result, since you have now been trapped inside her heart, you will have to face the childish- spoiled-ness of Furu.

*tuggles your shirt*

So now Furu asks…What has been going on in Furu’s deviantart account when Furu is away? *tilts head*

>: Why is no one happy here in Furu’s heart? >: Has Furu not given enough love to everyone?

You are all adults, ne? You all speak like adults. You have the ability to retort and argue and think like one as well. These bad things you say to each other in Furu’s wall…Furu will not understand them. Such language is not tolerable in Furu’s brain nor Furu’s heart.

Sit down. Drink a cup of tea. (>: Furu’s treat!!! *sends everyone tea* >: …or do you want coke? Water? Juice? >: Furu has lots of drinks to pass around)

Take a deep breath. Now….tell me. Why is it that Furu’s heart does not contain love? The last time I was here…there was warmth flowing everywhere. Now all I see is heat, and anger.

Tell me…why is it that you are mad at each other? No…Furu does not want to hear your adult words that Furu does not understand. Furu does not want to hear you use the words ‘hate’ and ‘rude’ and ‘outburst’ and other mean words to each other. Take another deep breath.

Did you know, that speaking when you are angry only results in saying things you don’t really mean…which results in even more anger and confusion?

Calm down. Drink more tea. (>: use the bathroom if you drink too much? Flush all that anger and confusion down the toilet).

Yupyup. Furu doesn’t know what it is you are arguing about. Furu will be a good Furu…and Furu will not interfere. Settle it yourselves, between yourselves. >: and don’t tell spoiled-Furu that you can’t, (>: because I will throw lollipops at you) because you are all adults…your usage of non-Furu-tolerable-language proves it as such, yes? If you can say mean words…you can say nice words as well.

What I have to say on that though…

Do whatever you want when I don’t see it. If you are here, if you are in Furu’s heart…then you are all Furu’s friends…and if you say mean things to each other…then you are not only hurting yourself, but me as well. >: and as I am selfish….I will say this-

Stop. Please.

I love you. (>: yes, even you who are reading this now and haven’t even posted a single time yet)

I believe in fate. And the fact that you have been lead here by some way (whether through Ryuu as his friend…or not friend…or if you came here because you read Furu’s fics…or you just randomly stumbled here… ) , such a meeting is held sacred by Furu.

You are my friends (>: whether you want to be…or not. <_< >_> <_< >_> though I hope you do consider me as a friend? >_> <_< >_> ) .

You can say bad things to me all you want, and I won’t mind. But if you say it to each other…then I do mind. Because I love you. I don’t want to see those I love saying those words.

Unless you really really don’t like me. Then all I have to say is…go on, say these things to each other as much as you want. I have seen enough of people (many whom I care for deeply) saying not-nice things to each other lately, and I am tired of it. Go on. Say not-nice things at each other. And while you are at it…since you are all inside my heart… please use all of that anger to stab my heart as well. I do not wish to be here anymore. You can leave my heart if it is gone.

(<_< …and yes, Furu believes in the childish mentality of loving everyone, too. >: I am sorry that you are having to read and listen to Furu’s ideals…but you have stumbled into my heart. <_< >_> and I talk to my heart a lot)

(>: You are respected young adults, with great futures to fulfill. But look at the children. Look at them, and learn from them. Don’t you see? Children yell at each other all the time, they get mad all the time. >: But when it is time to split our shares of candy, time to plead with mommy or the teachers for treats…we are friends once again. ^-^ Don’t loose that forgiving quality.)

Stop arguing, now. Stop saying mean things to each other.

Yes…we are human. Sometimes we get mad at each other. But we apologize, and we move on.

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<_< >_> <_< >_> <_< I am sorry for saying too much…>_> …and confusing ramblings nonetheless…

<_< ah…quick translation to what I’ve been trying to say?

In other words…

=Foxnede : *raises hand for handshake* ^-^ hello? I believe we haven’t been introduced properly yet. My name is Furu, and (<_< forget what words were said, I thank you for the kind offer for the hospital-thingie) nice to meet you.

Ah…Ryuu? (and to anyone else to has said words of defense for Furu) : *hugs* Thank you for showing to me that you care. And I appreciate it, lotslots...much more than I can say. But =Foxnede-san has already apologized, and I have already accepted that apology. ^__^<333 Why don’t we all just stop everything and become friends?

I don’t know what has occurred to lead to this in Furu’s deviant art account. But I have to say…that I hope we can all stop this, and be happy again. ^-^ Furu is happiest when I see everyone being nice to each other. >: and since this is my deviant art account…>: and you have stumbled into my heart…I have to say…>: please…let me be selfish this once? Let me be happy…by seeing all of your smiles and kind words to each other instead of not-so-kind ones.

Ah…and…I am tired now. I have to go…I don’t know when I am able to do so…as Furu cannot be online lotslots…but I can promise that I’ll give each and everyone of you a proper hello and reply and thank you for visiting my heart. (^-^ and thank you to those who have left such wonderful comments in Furu’s fics as well).

Oh! ^__^<3333 and in case you are reading this…>: Jisatsu and Dobby and Ryuu and Yuki and Shassta and pigtopus (<_< I still need to reply to that PM…gomen) and everyone else @_@... many to mention…>: I miss you all lotslots, and I hope to see you again.

-Furu x_x…

(o_o...this doesn't sound like a journal...does it? x_x...awww..)